I know it’s been a while since my last post.  Sorry about that.  I’m still trying to get into the “blogging mindset”.  LOL  A lot has happened since the last time I posted (well, a lot for me).  Let’s see………….

The curtain dropped and the bullshit stopped in regards to a few things: 1)  A “friend’s” relationship of 8 years.  I’d go into why I put the word friend in quotes, but that would take me into the daylight hours with this blog entry;  2) The woman of said “ceased to be 8 year relationship” moved in with Brianna and I.  It started out kind of hot.  Every guys fantasy: 2 women willing to do whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted, thereby my sexual appetite being satiated constantly.  HOWEVER, as is wont to happen, the more I got to know Reivyn (real name protected for obvious reasons), the more I fell for her (this actually started happening in around 6 years ago, but I’ll get to that).  Naturally, Brianna felt very left out as our chemistry increased and became more obvious.  And therefore, she became more negative in day to day life.  This actually happened after the first week of all of us living together and sleeping together (yes, I mean hardcore, XXX sex stuff as well as actual sleep!).  Her negativity actually was affecting my ability to keep my cock hard with her so I could fuck her as intensely as I did Reivyn!

As I realized this, we tried to fix it with a majorly draining negative energy drain with positive reinforcement and realigning of her chakras.  It lasted all of 24 hrs.  I thought long and hard about my relationship with Brianna and realized that our relationship had been dead since I called it off on Jane St. and that it had been pretty much a carnal cumfest thing ever since.  I mean sure, I care about her.  But I am not “in love” with her.  I don’t see myself marrying her.  Fucking her tits, ass, pussy and mouth and filling/covering them all in my cum?  Sure!  But, that’s the carnal/animal side of me talking.  That doesn’t require “love”.  Reivyn knows this.  Humans for carnal pleasure is one thing.  Caring about them or not, doesn’t necessarily enter into it.  If Brianna could stow the negativity and be more positive, I would love to play with the both of them and see them both in action again!  For fuck’s sakes, I’m not dead!  LMAO  However, she and Reivyn will have to work that out between the 2 of them. As you can figure out by now, #3) is that Brianna and I’s relationship of about 3.5 years ended and Reivyn and I’s relationship continues to get stronger every day.

Now, what can I say about Reivyn?  She’s intoxicatingly beautiful, brilliant and unwaveringly loving.  I am totally in love with her!  Yeah, you heard me “In Love”!  I felt something that could only be described as an attraction to her when I met her 6 years ago.  However, I was clueless for a few reasons.  1) She was my best friend’s girl!  I DON”T steal other people’s girls.  I let the relationship take its natural course and if it’s meant to be, it’s meant to be.  If not, so be it.  2) She didn’t talk!!!  She was so shy that she wouldn’t talk around me!  However, I found out recently that she was mutually interested in me the whole time and she was the one who would suggest to her bf that he should invite me over so she could just sit and listen and learn more about me!  LOL  3) She was very shy and inexperienced when it came to sex.  I would’ve scared the hell out of her. >;P  4) I was very committed the young lady I was with at the time.

What’s Reivyn like now?  We have tonnes in common!  We rarely have nothing to talk about and simply enjoy each other’s company otherwise.  We talk openly and honestly about EVERYTHING!  Not a damn secret in this relationship.  And when i say we talk about everything, I mean everything.  I am SO proud of how willing she is to talk about sex, what works for each of us and how we can improve our sex lives.  She is VERY curious about everything sexual now.  She absorbs info like a sponge and doesn’t let it go.  She has proven and admitted to being as much of a sex addict/carnal junkie as I am.  She talks dirty, she sucks my cock with utter abandon in ravenous anticipation of my cum pouring down her throat and loves to have me go down on her pussy giving her orgasm after orgasm until she passes out.  She rides my cock and has me fuck her pussy like a demon possessed.  She loves that anal gives her multiple orgasms continuously from the moment my cock is in her ass.  She literally drips with anticipation and quivers with said anticipation at the thought of being DPed (double penetrated) and various other scenarios (some that are going to require more participants)!  ;P~  *drooling and getting hard at the images that are going through my head*

I love the fact that we have so many things in common it’s almost spooky.  I love that if she had the opportunity she would have me pleasuring her every which way and would be drinking my cum and having it fill her pussy and ass and coat her body 24/7/365 (366 in a Leap Year).  I love that we’ve been interested in each other and fantasizing about each other for 6 years and the intensity of those emotions and images has only intensified over that time.  I love that the Fates rolled the dice and saw that it was time for us to FINALLY be together!

While I am still questing for work, trying to make the gym and pool a regular part of our week, and whatnot, I am glad we have each other to lean on when the going gets tough,show pride in one another as we accomplish things in life and strive for a better life…..and can attempt to satiate each others endless sexual appetites and depravities!  ^_^

Well, It’s now going on quarter to 4 in the morning.  I should masturbate to the naughty images going through my head and rejoin my slumbering Beautiful Lady in bed.

Good night all!  *POOF*  =(^.^)=

Speaking of finding employment, I think I’m going to end up applying for jobs in the food services division.  Not by choice, not by a long shot.  However, I haven’t heard back from anywhere that I’ve applied and we may not even have the money to survive this month!  So, being picky is about to become so NOT an option.  Not to mention, a good friend of mine was going to come job hunting with me, but due to shitty rainy weather yesterday that was out of the question.  I need to give her a call and see if it’s still a go or what.  *shrugs*

I got some feedback from people on my last (and also first) post.  Y’know, my introduction?  I got asked if I was worried about coming off as an uncaring asshole.  I said no and what made them ask?  Hilariously, it was the part about my not giving a shit if people can’t handle the truth!  Seriously?!  O.o  My question to them was this: would you rather I lie to you and then hours, days, weeks….hell, years later you come at me whining about how you can’t believe I lied and your feelings are hurt and you just don’t know if you can trust me anymore; OR would you rather I tell you the truth and even though your feelings may get hurt, you can feel reassured that at least I told you the truth and you can go harp at the people that “call themselves your friends” by lying to you just to “spare your feelings” when in the long run it just does more damage than good in this game we call life?  My Gods people!  I don’t lie to my friends or to those that just tell me they want an honest answer, I can’t be bothered to lie; and just to spare someone’s feelings (which are going to end up hurt anyways)?  FUCK THAT!!!  I will go to the grave with a clean conscience and everyone else can live with the fact that Jonny was one of the few people that actually cared enough to never bullshit them.

*sigh*  Humans…..they never cease to amuse me by making things/life more complicated than it has to be!  ROFLMFnAO

Don’t get me wrong, I worry and stress too.  However, I’d like to think that I’m much more selective about what I stress/worry about.  Plus, there is a difference between the 2.  Hear me out.  I “stress” about if we’re even going to be able to afford to eat this month (meaning June).  I “worry” about the well-being of my friends.  IMHO, this is a good formula since I have absolutely NO intentions of losing my hair or getting an ulcer or any other health conditions (mental or physical) getting bent out of shape over stupid shit.  Try this ….mantra….if you will that works for me:  Is this a situation I have any control over?  eg. Can you control how China and Japan get along, the weather, force some one to hire you over thousands of other candidates, stuff that you CLEARLY can do NOTHING about?  If the answer is “no” then stop fucking worrying about it.  It’s stupid and not worth shortening your lifespan or losing your hair over.  If it’s something like merely going and applying for a job, whether or not you choose to answer the phone, exercise, have sex and with whom….THEN you have the choice, the control.  NO ONE ELSE!!!  And I can’t stress that enough; NOBODY ELSE has the power to tell you what you’re going to do or how you’re going to do it.  If you know someone in your life like that, THEY have the problem NOT you.  The only problem you have is the choice you make.  Are you gong to let others control you like a mindless puppet or are you in control to do what you want, when you want, how you want and with whom you want?  I recommend the 2nd choice personally.  I find better mental health that way.  Now this is not to say you don’t listen to others input and opinions.  Far from it!  Listen to them, take it into account.  BUT the final decision MUST be your own!  NOT “well this is what such-and-such says and they know what’s best for me”.  That’s absolute crap!  The only person who knows what’s best for you is you.  What the fuck do they know?  Is their life so fucking perfect that they have earned the omniscient right to make decisions and control the lives of others?  NO!  No one in all of history has EVER had that right and no one EVER will!

Now people might read this and wonder how the whole “people being completely honest with you” and “who controls your life?” thing tie together.  It’s easy.  By being totally in control of your life, your fate, your destiny and not letting others control it for you, you will quickly weed out the lying control freaks and who is real and truly cares about YOU and what YOU want.  The rest can go get stuffed!  :P  It sounds harsh, but if people can’t be honest with one another and for some reason feel the need to control others, they’re not worth the flesh they’re printed on!  I’ve lost many “friends” because of my mantra and my beliefs.  But, do I shed a tear over the loss?  Abso-fuckin’-lutley not!  I mean, how dare they even categorize themselves as “friends”?  Real friends DON”T pull crap like that.  They’re honest and there for each other and NEVER try and control you or tell you what’s best for you.  They’re straight up, offer their opinion and support you NO MATTER WHAT.

To close for now, I’d like to stress one thing: this is NOT directed at ANYONE in particular!  This is a life long peeve of mine and is something that’ll never change.  Do NOT come bitching at me or suddenly ignore me/”give me the silent treatment” because of my beliefs and opinions.  If you find yourself believing that this is a personal attack on you, not my problem.  Analyze yourself.  If you want my opinion, ask.  I’ll give it.  And I’ll still be the very definition of “a friend” (as stated prior).  This is a glimpse into beliefs that I hold strongly and dearly.

I look forward to hearing opinions and have a nice day!  :)

I’ve done stuff like this before.  I started with a DeadJournal, moved on to BlogSpot/Blogger (or whatever it was called), now I’m here!  After talking with some good friends and reading the Terms of Service, I’m hoping that this one is the one that lasts.

I’m caucasian (Celtic descent) 34 years old with a full head of long dark red hair, glasses and a goatee.  I’ve put on a bit of weight over the past 3 years due to a bit of depression (I blame Durham Region) and some personal medical reasons.  I have a permanent kidney condition that can kill me if left untreated (meds for life), Aspergers Syndrome (high-functioning autistic) and genetically high cholesterol.  I’ve led an interesting life and don’t give a flying fuck if people believe me or not.  I can’t be bothered to put the effort into lying.  If you can’t handle the truth, I really could care less; you’re not the one I have anything to prove anything to.  I have beliefs that fall into the categories of Pagan, Shinto, Buddhist, Hedonistic and Jedi.  I’m fascinated by pretty much everything, love animals (especially tigers) and I’m bisexual with a voracious sexual appetite.  How’s that for an intro?  LMAO

Well, I’m back in Toronto and living downtown in a freakin’ fantastic building with a party/sun deck and indoor pool & gym on the roof.  I’ve swam quite a bit since moving in, but haven’t really given the gym a go.  Mainly because on April 30th we came to put the 1st month’s rent on the place to move in on May 1st.  As I was getting off the Jane St. bus and just entering the Jane subway station, I got a call from Jose at Seduction on Yonge St.  I was let go.  Talk about a heart stopper right?

How does this tie into why I haven’t implemented the gym into my daily workout, you ask?  I’ll tell you.  When I worked out before (a long time ago), I had a sufficiently full kitchen.  So, I had the nutrition available to give me energy for my workout as well as for after to replenish and feed my body to aid in its development.  Without a job and only ODSP to rely on, I don’t have that key option.  We have to make every last morsel of food last and count.  Gods be willing, I’ll be able to acquire employment (recessions suck) and once again with employment and ODSP we’ll be able to get back on track with slowly but surely getting out of debt, the kitchen will be full of nutritious sustenance and I can workout hardcore and get back to my favourite appearance (proportionately muscle bound at 325 lbs with a 4 – 4.5% body fat).

I’ve realized a catch to the whole “suddenly unemployed scenario”.  When you’re working, you wish you had more time to relax and/or do other stuff.  When you’re suddenly unemployed, you KNOW you need a job just to make sure everything that requires $$$ is covered, but at the same time you can laze about catching up on sleep, reading, movies, email, socializing (when it doesn’t require money), video games, sex……and so you have a surprisingly powerful adversary to overcome: Lethargy!  Whom can soon be joined by his evil cohorts Depression & Frustration!  LOL

Well, I’m keeping my eyes open for employment opportunities that I know I can do without having to do crap like cut my hair to look all stereotypically GQ or be put on the dead man’s shift (overnight).

My dream goal that I’m working towards (albeit slowed down due to this pesky unemployed thing) is to move to Singapore.  I’ve always gotten what I want no matter how hard I had to work towards it.  I plan to go to the grave with no regrets because in the end the only person I ever answer to or have anything to prove to is me.

My name is Jon Blaze.  Pleased to meet you.